MrsLefroy

Once, I was a something
something special
something meaningful
something valuable
made in you 
with someone else
I remember
the warm water 
I stayed in there
and grew bigger, stronger, and happier

Four months later,
I could touch you, kick you, even hear you
you could feel mine
I could feel yours
I felt love

Something was going to happen
a bad omen
I smelled doctor, surgery, medicine

My water was no longer friendly
but dirty and chilly
a long iron forceps,
searching me
like an assassin finding the king

suddenly
my head explored 
like an atomic bomb
I wanted to punch
but my hands were gone
I wanted to kick
but my legs were gone
I broke into pieces
like the mermaid princess

I smelled violence
I smelled tenseness
I smelled tears

I am a shade
a wraith
a death,
if you hate me.

I am a spirit
a soul
a self,
if you love me.

I am created for death
I am a nothing.

I want to call you
Mom
Do you love me?










ABORTION